Sugar Secrets

More to this life

2010-08-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

Round and round this world we go
Forming truths from what we know
It could never be foretold
What will happen tomorrow
Things we see right now will change
Our lives will never be the same

Time will tell as hours go
The truth inside will soon unfold
Revealing secrets as we grow
Into a brand new tomorrow
The plan is already in place
Transcending love through time and space
Strong and humbled by His grace
Catching tear drops from my face
And I know I will not be ashamed

A moment in time has passed before my eyes
I'm struggling to fight the reasons we cry
There's more to this life, there's more to this life

2010-08-11T22:01:00.001+08:00

The love never comes back.

2010-06-11T23:10:00.001+08:00

For all those who are still reading this blog and wondering if I have stopped blogging entirely, the answer is no. You can catch me here: http://inthesunshine.wordpress.com

I hope this time I'm there for good. See you on the other side! :)

2010-05-24T18:56:00.003+08:00

Food food food, shopping, sunglasses in the scorching sun, 4inch heels, colourful shaved ices, tze char, ironing, joy & laughter with some of my favourite people yesterday.

Early mornings, wet hair, beauty magazines, void decks, lazing around, home made meehoon kueh, THE LOSERS (love the cute sniper guy), frozen yogurt, cheezels, blueberry biscuits, cold, sleepy bus rides with my girlfriend today.

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Looking forward to the holidays, nevermind that it's only 2 weeks. Gonna cram lotsa activites!!! Momentum, minnie mouse + costume dress up birthday party, girly day out, celebratory italian dinner + new experience, church camp, dim sum date (insert more activities here)

On a sidenote, I really need to lose weight. Minnie Mouse can't be fat. :/

RESIST TEMPTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ciaos.

2010-05-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Words can be like knives, they can cut you open. And then the silence surrounds you and haunts you. The spaces in between, two minds and all the places they have been. The spaces in between, I tried to put my finger on it. I tried to put my finger on it.

Hot hot hot!!!

2010-05-09T01:15:00.001+08:00

Geez! The weather is crazily hot. Argh so gonna die in this heat!!! I don't mind the hotness only if Ian Somerhalder is beside me.

Okay I am kidding.

2010-05-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

"I know there's some things about yourself that you would like to change. But you should know that there's some boy out there who is going to like you for everything you are. Including the parts you don't like, those are gonna be the things he likes most." - Mr Schu to Rachel in GLEE

No one likes the smell of failure

2010-04-30T21:53:00.003+08:00

Lately, I have been feeling like I never quite measure up. It sucks.

2010-04-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

Finn: But then I heard you sing. I don't know how to say this, but you touched something in me. Right here. *puts hand to chest*
Rachel: Your heart's on the other side of your chest.
Finn: Oh...it's beating really hard.

rightside up or upside down

2010-04-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

"We get hurt by someone and we swear to ourselves that we would never ever do that to someone else. And somewhere not too far down the road, we end up doing that exact same thing. We're hypocrites. We are all the same inside. My hands and words are as equally capable of causing as yours, as his, as that thief's, as that murderer's...

Is there an honest soul left in this world? And what would that look like, anyway? I'm not sure that we would recognise it."

2010-04-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

Recently spoke to a friend who shared why he stopped believing. Seems like things aren't turning out for the better everytime he prayed, hoped and waited.

I honestly have no answer to why it didn't or when it will ever happen. Was it because he didn't pray enough? That I don't know. But I do know the feeling of having your hopes and faith gradually diminish with each passing day.

When that happens, do you just give up and walk away or ride on whatever little faith you have left, trusting that everything will be made beautiful in His perfect time?

For a moment there, I struggled to answer. And that's worrying...

Updates

2010-04-09T21:44:00.004+08:00

Ended my last day of work with Suntec yesterday. It is one of the best working experience ever and I did learnt a lot on the job. I am seriously grateful towards the people who made my 1 1/2 months great with their unwavering patience and kind assistance towards me. Thank you thank you! :) Saying goodbye was hard to do but we all have to move on with our lives right?

Closed a chapter of my life and another is about to begin in less than a week! Noooo...I haven't had my fair share of fun. OK time to catch up on more K dramas(Oh! My Lady & Personal Taste), meet up with my fave people, sleep more, slack more do everything MORE MORE MORE before school starts to consume me. Ciaooooo.

The heart is what matters most of all

2010-04-07T22:23:00.004+08:00

We live in an imperfect world and are subjected to the imperfections of this system. Our bodies, including everything in this world that we can see, are temporal. What is surely more important is who we are inside.

Twitter > SMS

2010-04-06T22:08:00.005+08:00

My mom just asked me what's Twitter because according to her, "Auntie Lynette kept asking me to twitter her instead of sms. She said she won't read her messages on her phone." HAHAHAHA!!!

2010-04-03T22:38:00.003+08:00

I typed a whole chunk on updates of my life but couldn't hit the publish button. I guess...maybe this is the end? Or maybe not?

Anyway...

2010-03-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.
What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, will often be forgetten. Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

x

2010-03-20T23:07:00.001+08:00

Hey there, guess who's back ;)

Noah's Ark

2010-03-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

Everything I need to know, I learned from Noah’s Ark:

1. Don’t miss the boat.

2. Remember that we are all in the same boat!

3. Plan ahead. It wasn’t raining when Noah built the Ark.

4. Stay fit. When you’re 60 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.

5. Don’t listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.

6. Build your future on high ground.

7. For safety’s sake, travel in pairs.

8. Speed isn’t always an advantage. The snails were on board with the cheetahs.

9. When you’re stressed, float awhile.

10. Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.

11. No matter the storm, when you are with God, there’s always a rainbow waiting.

- by Dan Brodeck

3 little pigs

2010-02-27T20:34:00.003+08:00

Received a funny SMS from my mom yesterday evening.

"3 little pigs! 3 little pigs! 1 skinny pig still in the camp, 1 pretty pig shopping for trotter n 1 fatty pig don't play play but pray pray the whole night through. Love mama pig sighing away."

2010-02-21T21:35:00.006+08:00

A short update before work consume me.

1) I ended my first year in poly!
2) Went to looksee around Universal Studios during the CNY period.
3) Gonna start my holiday job tomorrow for a month. I'm gonna sound silly but i'm more worried about having lunch alone so if anyone is around suntec, please meet me for lunch! :p

Right..now for Gain & Jokwon WGM spam :D
This cute & funny couple never fail to have me in stitches.

Gain & Jokwon interacts w/ a foreigner. I'm honestly surprised because all along
I thought Jokwon was only capable of gibberish english. Watch his hilarious i'm fresh pork rice video

Jokwon: She(refering to Gain) have very scary eyes. You see. No cute. Oh, no beautiful! You scary eyes...

Then they taught him how to do the Abarcadabra dance.
At 7.28-1.30 Jokwon pronounced 'disgusting' as 'discutting'. LOL!

Gain is so funny towards the end. E.N.D

During english lesson...
Seon saeng nim: Why do you want to go to Australia?
Jokwon: Delicious food.
Seon saeng nim: For example? Kangaroo?
Jokwon: Hmm..yeah *nods*

AHAHAHAHA! <3 Jokwon w/ his flat hair.

2010-02-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable. You twist to fit the mould that I am in but things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do. And I would gladly hit the road, get up and go if I knew that someday it would lead me back to you.

Reality

2010-02-04T22:56:00.003+08:00

"The sky's the limit!" "Dream big!" Sometimes it gets too much that you're sucked away from reality. It's okay to have dreams but what if the dreams you have are far from achievable? Do you still go on thinking you CAN do it when you're doing nothing to reach it? I really dislike people who are so full of themselves. Please please, know your limits. Afterall, the higher you hope the harder you fall, no?

Hello! Welcome to planet earth.

Stressed is dessertS spelt backwards

2010-01-31T16:19:00.003+08:00

이 맛이야. 아~ 진짜!!!

HELPer-LESS

2010-01-30T21:57:00.007+08:00

The family went without a maid on Monday. I rmbed waking up early to make my bed, preparing breakfast for little brother, waking him up for school then watching him walked off to school before I went on my own way. Felt like a mother. When I reached home after school, I helped mom cooked rice, walked the dogs, did the dishes, cleaned the rice cooker and cleared the rubbish. Felt like a housewife. Boy, was it tough! I'm starting to get used to it after almost a week.

I think through this, I've learnt how to do housechores(never did all my life besides the occasional cleaning of my room), be a more responsible person and tolerant to the naggings. :x Never felt so tired in a week before! *cue dead fish mode*

+ went to cover Kel's duties at the gym today. It was slack but I wished I was at home sleeping in. I've got Spanish Tomato, Magic Masala LAYS flavoured chips and Kinder Surprise!!! AHHHH OK more food = bad news for me. *stares at :O legs & :/ arms*

Here's an acoustic(yay!) cover of BEP's Meet Me Halfway

Lotsa love,
AMANDA

2010-01-27T22:28:00.003+08:00

Kwonnie's ver of G-Dragon's Heartbreaker. Nice biceps :p

More funny cuts on SK.

Jo Kwon & Ga In

2010-01-23T01:01:00.008+08:00

Been watching Jo Kwon & Ga In, WE GOT MARRIED cuts. They're such a cute & funny couple! They are now my favourite! Yesyes I like them more than I like ssangchu couple. Honestly, I love seeing them together. For some reason, it makes me feel happy :D

Taming Kwonnie:

Their duet on radio:

They sound really good together too. & omg JoKwon has such a good voice~ I didn't know he could sing so well.

^^

*****
Key & Kwonnie dance to Beyonce's song

Kwonnie's too funny!

What to say?

2010-01-22T22:45:00.001+08:00

"Communication. It’s the first thing we really learn in life. The funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking, the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need." -GREY'S ANATOMY

Can't forget

2010-01-19T21:27:00.003+08:00

*text msg from mom* Tmr my PaPa 1yr anniv :'(
Me: Don't cry. Later I'll give you a hug.

I wish I know how to make people feel better. Are hugs enough?

2010-01-17T18:21:00.005+08:00

Spent weeks praying and waiting for a breakthrough. Nothing great has happened..YET but I'm 110% sure it's coming and when it finally do, it will be SOOOOO BIG that we can't contain it! I was blessed today. It's amazing because I was worrying about it just yesterday and today God sent someone to bless me. *poof* Worries are gone. I think , through this I've grown to be much more sensible(not that i wasn't in the past :p).

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Pls pray for Haiti! Sat down and read the papers today, most of which are devastating(that is why I don't like reading newspapers). I teared when I read about how a 10year old boy carried his 5 month old babysister around begging for food and water. I wish I had the money to help...but sadly I don't so all I can do is pray. I cannot imagine how it feels like to be hit with tragedy, losing loved ones, seeing dead bodies lying around and trying your hardest to survive. It's heart-breaking... :'( God pls, do something because I know it's breaking your heart too.

Sigh. So emotional these days. Nothing's too bad to salvage, too big to conquer, too impossible to overcome with GOD.

Here's something encouraging for the soul,
- Live every day with great expectance because God is good and He holds true to His promises!
- If you would dare believe and trust God, the walls of Jericho will fall. Nothing is impossible or too big!
- People always say that seeing is believing but I would say, believe in order to see. That's faith!

Love,
Amanda

2010-01-13T20:52:00.005+08:00

Big brother is off to Brunei for 2 weeks. I know he won't like it there so I specially packed a bag of sweets for him hoping to cheer him up a lil' :) Stay safe!

PPPP :P

2010-01-10T23:00:00.004+08:00

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Tom: I need some consistency. I need to know you won't wake up tomorrow and feel a different way.
Summer: I can't promise you that. Nobody can. Anyone who does is a liar.

Get up!

2010-01-03T16:20:00.005+08:00

Seeking more than ever. Counting blessings and getting ready for overflowing abundance!!! You're more than enough. I know for sure, You're more than enough for me... :D

Inadequate

2010-01-02T20:38:00.001+08:00

I had someone close to me tell me that we're not supposed to be perfect at everything. He's totally right.

Goodbye 2009

2009-12-30T16:00:00.004+08:00

It's been a year full of ups and downs. I entered a new phase in my life, made new friends, grew closer to some, been hurt by people's words and indifference, helped out at cool events, had my hair at the longest length ever(only to cut it today for a change), put on braces, learnt Korean and many others which I think will bore you if I were to type it all down..

Thank you all for making my 2009! And not forgetting...

God, who has been faithful throughout but sometimes I'm too caught up with my own life to pause and feel His presence. He blessed me even when I was undeserving and loved unconditionally. I pray that 2010 will be a year of breakthroughs. The trials and tragedies of 2009 will become the testimonies of 2010!!

As for you my friend, I pray 2010 will a year full of blessings and happiness for you too. Always rest in the fact that you're highly favoured, deeply loved and greatly blessed. :D

You reminded me that I am and will always be Your precious pink flower :)

새해 복 많이 받으세요!
Love & Peace,
Amanda

You're Beautiful

2009-12-24T01:45:00.005+08:00

I know I'm slow in jumping onto the 'You're Beautiful' bandwagon(just today. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this level of excitement and anticipation about a korean drama. I first noticed Jang Geun-seok in Hong Gil Dong and now, I really love him in You're Beautiful. Move aside, Kim Hyun Joong. HAHA! Go watch it if you haven't!!

Finally, some swedish meatballs

2009-12-20T22:53:00.005+08:00

This is going to be my fourth update today. I think nowz-a-day I hardly update but when I do, I spam 'em!!!

Finally went to IKEA with Eudora, Sammy, Rachel Fong and Chan after church today. I think having braces makes you classy cos you have to use a fork and knife to eat. OK then again, maybe not. I just rmbed using my hands to peel my chicken into pieces. *guilty* Eh what, I still can't chew properly! Wonder when I'll get to fully savour my favourite chicken wings *teary eyed*

Gonna love this upcoming week! Have a blessed week, y'all :)

"I have metal teeth!"

2009-12-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

17 Dec 2009

Dad brought Ryan and I to Tekka Market for Duck & Goose rice then we went to Botanical Gardens since we had time to kill. I miss that place! Will always remember the times we sun dry bread and walked there to feed the ducks and swans.

I was dropped off at KKH and made my way to the dentist's office. I tell you, the wait was...scary. I was damn worried that I would feel the pain during the extraction. It was frightening OKAY! My gentle and super nice dentist suddenly turned into a fierce tooth monster, a nurse had to hold my head while he used a plier to pluck it owwwww..

I could feel the excruciating pain after the anesthetic weared off :( Poor me cried in bed, had to swallow my saliva with blood(i felt like a vampire. LOL ok too much Vampire Diaries) and took almost an hour to finish half a bowl of chicken porridge. I told myself I never want to go through such pain again....then I realised I have 2 more extraction plus lower braces to put on next month.

OMG WTHECK *face palm*

BBQ with LUNCH

2009-12-20T22:12:00.004+08:00

15 Dec 2009
Met up to explore Chinatown...
I think this was at Club St. The place is quite posh. Me likey :p
Ann Siang Hill? And outside Polymath & Crust, a bookstore.

Reached Shar's place but couldn't start the fire due to a heavy downpour :(

Fire for BBQ.

I don't have nice pictures after this one, so I'm not gonna post it up. We had a bumpy but fun ride to the MRT station and I reached home at 12mn. LOL just like Cinderella. Let's do it again! This time with a sleepover :) Note to LUNCH: Piccas will be up on FB soon! I can't seem to use the bulk uploader. The 5 by 5 sucksssss.

Lola the rabbit

2009-12-20T21:49:00.004+08:00

13-15 Dec 2009 We had a rabbit. It was shortlived because the rabbit died two days later. To clarify, we did not kill the rabbit! It already had an illness when some random lady gave it to us in a plastic bag. I'm guessing, she was going to abandon it... *sigh* Thank God, the rabbit met kind souls *ahem dad* *ahem brother* who took it home and we were able to give it warmth, a bath (don't ask! We ALMOST killed it :/) and sweet yummy carrots for 2 days.

Before life removed all the innocence...

2009-12-16T19:24:00.002+08:00

Now, everything I know is starting to disgust me.

Holiday Mood

2009-12-12T16:40:00.004+08:00

One more day of school + one more paper to go before we break for Christmas and New Year. Ahhhhhh I.can.do.this!

2009-12-09T20:24:00.003+08:00

Anything that annoys you is for teaching you patience.
Anyone who abandons you is for teaching you how to stand up on your own two feet. Anything that has power over you is for teaching you how to take your power back.
Anything that angers you is for teaching you forgiveness and compassion.
Anything you hate is for teaching you unconditional love.
Anything you fear is for teaching you courage to over come your fear.
Anything you can't control is for teaching you how to let go and trust GOD!

2009-12-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

Oh Leona, what beautiful voice you have! Have you heard her collaboration with One Republic- Lost then Found? It's just as awesome as Happy.

Get this

2009-12-04T23:02:00.000+08:00

Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike.

2009-12-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

Change is the only constant. Did they change or they are the same old, just that we did not dig deeper? I don't think things will ever be the same again. Sometimes I wish I know what people are truly thinking. But I guess I never will because I'm no Edward Cullen or God for that matter.

“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I’m already better than them.”

1 more week to midterm break!

2009-12-04T22:23:00.004+08:00

Free Starbucks yesterday. :D & a joint presentation of our Elevator & Sales pitch today. I had to take over the responsibility of presenting the Elevator pitch at the last minute and was so freaked out. But all was fine. I gave a smooth delivery all thanks to a few rehearsals in front of the mirror, praying with Agatha in the toilet and God. Not forgetting the encouragement from lovely people and the brains behind the crafting of the pitches. I don't stand by what you did but thanks anyway. Oh, I survived another week of school!

2009-12-01T22:46:00.004+08:00

I read my older posts and realised I was much happier(and skinnier hehe), because I was much closer to God, in 2007. There's no point looking back...December is already here. Before we know it, it will be the start of a new year. Don't wanna lose myself again.

The Quiet World by Jeffrey Mcdaniel

2009-11-30T22:38:00.004+08:00

In an effort to get people to look into each other’s eyes more,the government has decided to allot each person exactly one hundred and sixty-seven words, per day. When the phone rings, I put itto my ear without saying hello. In the restaurant I point at chicken noodle soup. I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover and proudly say I only used fifty-nine today. I saved the rest for you. When she doesn’t respond, I know she’s used up all her words so I slowly whisper I love you, thirty-two and a third times.

After that, we just sit on the line and listen to each other breathe.

2009-11-28T23:57:00.010+08:00

19NOV A Christmas Carol with churchmates. <3

20NOV 2012 with Debs, visited SVC and explored Orchard Central. It was boring except for the scary escalators up and the view from the top.

26NOV Formal wear for Entrepreneurship's networking session then hungout with Sugie & Shar. Was supposed to go to HARRIS but it was too crowded so we chilled at Liat Tower's Starbucks. Java Chip venti with no whippedcream & Marks and Spencer's buttermints :)

27NOV Picnic with the extended family. Cycled around with da brother and tried to save jellyfishies who were washed up the shore. Dad, "maybe the jellyfishes came up to take a rest and now you're throwing them back in." Haha!

Attended Aunt Yan's wedding dinner with mom. I love weddings! No pictures of the celebration because they're with the cameraman and Nicole's dad. "There's a third party in every relationship." God is the third party muahahaha!

28NOV Watched Gokusen The Movie with Kor and Joel. I like the character Ryu Odagiri(Kazuya Kamenashi), he is so darn cool. I find guys who talk too much, annoying.

Always count your blessings people! Much love.

2009-11-28T01:16:00.003+08:00

I'm still awake at 1.17am! That's very rare.. Went for Aunt Yan Wen's wedding dinner today. There were many people from New Creation, saw a few familiar faces like my ex-colleague from SC. At first I thought maybe he was there because the groom is his PR client. Later found out from mom, he's an NCC usher.

Then..I saw the owner of sketchbooklabel. AHHHH I love her designs. Apparently, mom is friends with her mom. So I went up to her and showed her the bracelet I was wearing and she almost fainted from happiness. Hehehe. Sketchbooklabel is just her part time online store because she has a chocolate shop at Takashimaya. So cooool and she's only 22.!!

"Hi thanks to all in 3rd level for coming. And also to the 4th and 6th floors- the overflow rooms." HAHAHA i laughed real hard when the bridegroom said that. NCC has overflow rooms and majority of the guests are from NCC so he decided to include the last part for laughs. Sat with part of the stirling road caregroup. It was nice meeting the NCC people again :)

It's late and my brain's not functioning well...shall update more when I have the time. NIGHT Y'ALL! Oh, I can't wait to get married. Aunt Yan Wen said my time will come soon. Hee. *shy*

2009-11-27T00:25:00.007+08:00

Why do we not care when we finally get what we have always wanted? Did it came too late? This week, class in particular was horrible but thank God I survived.

2009-11-24T22:56:00.006+08:00

Angie "I'll buy this for you as your belated birthday present and you must buy me *shares a design of a Chanel bag* in return OK?"
Amanda "Wow. Your drawing has improved. & i wear a size 7 la KUKU!"
Angie "Never mind la. My design size 6 can already."
Amanda "Maybe cos when I become an ahma, everything will shrink? Boobs...even feet size. Hahaha wtf!"

*biggrin*

End of han-guk-geo elementary 1

2009-11-24T20:50:00.003+08:00

장 선생님은 친절하고 재미있는 분이십니다. 한가지언어는충분하지못해. 이제는 한국어어렵다 but I hope one day my 한국말을잘합니다. 선생님은 감사한니다. 수고했습니다! :)

* My grammar and sentence structure(Subject Noun Verb) still suck but I will 배우러 열심히. 아자! 아자! 파이팅!

Oh FINA!

2009-11-21T20:53:00.005+08:00

I'm helping out at the FINA/Arena Swimming World Cup 2009 and today's Day 1. Basically, my job is to collect the swimmers' cards and arrange them according to their lanes and they'll collect them after their competition. There are several cute swimmers with smokin' hot bods, most of whom are foreigners and way too tall for me!

- Shared a cab with a Power 98fm radio deejay. I was running late for the afternoon session so I decided to take a cab from the bus stop just outside Singapore Sports School. This lady approached me, asked if I'm going there and if I wanted to share a cab. I thought she was a spectator but later found out she's going to cover the event! When we arrived, she picked up the cab fare because she is able to claim from the company. I'm so touched by her kind gesture, even though it's only a few dollars, I'm sure she's already planning to do that. She even sheltered me from the rain. How can a stranger be so nice to another stranger? I'm amazed...

- Saw Matthew, who's the co-host of the global event. That guy's my inspiration because he's only 20 yet his portfolio is filled with hosting, acting, journalism, radio, modelling and singing experiences- YOG and SG Idol studio host is one of the many. Kor smsed him to let him know I was there and asked me to go say 'Hi' but I was too shy to. Haha. OK, my point is...never stop reaching for your dreams and believing in yourself. Cos he did and look where he is now.

Day 2 and the last day of the World Cup tomorrow. Whoa, this entry seems long and boring. Hug yourself if you did read through everything. Imma go rest my legs and sleep early tonight. Have a good weekend! :D 신의 축복이

2009-11-20T20:28:00.007+08:00

모르겠습니다 무슨일이에요. *frowns* 이제는 다시시작해?

2009-11-18T21:44:00.006+08:00

My heart feels heavy... I wish I could talk to someone about it but I can't. Was it a mistake when our paths crossed? Would I rather not know about it? Is it wrong to keep it all inside?

Faith Hope Love? Maybe.

Hello my friend. I remember when you were so alive with your wide eyes. Then the light in your heart was stolen. Now you say that it ain't worth staying, you wanna run but you're hesitating. I'm talking to me. Don't let your lights go down, don't let your fire burn out. Somewhere somebody needs a reason to believe. So when you get the chance, are you gonna take it? There's a really big world at your fingertips and you know you have the chance to change it.

Never stop believing...

Do you remember?

2009-11-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts...God knows how hard you have tried.

When you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish...God has counted your tears.

If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by...God is waiting with you.

When you're lonely and your friends are too busy even for a phone call...God is by your side.

When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn...God has a solution.

When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated...God has the answer.

If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope...God has whispered to you.

When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for...God has blessed you.

When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe...God has smiled upon you.

When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow...God has opened your eyes and called you by name.

Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing...GOD KNOWS

Thank you.. *tear eyed*

2009-11-16T21:32:00.001+08:00

2009-11-11T22:27:00.001+08:00

“ You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. ”

— Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

2009-11-08T18:04:00.002+08:00

My fantastic friday. Lovin' life :)

2009-11-04T20:00:00.006+08:00

Have you ever read a love story with the sweetest ending or watched the most romantic movie which portrayed the perfect kind of guy/girl you'd want to fall in love with, who'd always love you back just as much? Have you ever imagined yourself in such a beautiful fantasy, secretly wishing that someday it might happen to you.. Secretly hoping that one day you'll meet that special someone you will (and not just "want to") spend the rest of your life with? I have and still do. Do you?

2009-11-03T22:20:00.002+08:00

Just a few and more to come. KELLY, lemme keep our polaroid :p

Run For Hope

2009-11-02T19:06:00.005+08:00

Helped out at the Run for Hope event @ The Regent hotel yesterday. Kel and my job were to usher people from the main entrance to the registration counter or race pack collection booths.

The beautiful hotel lobby

Our position was quite slack so we sat around and talked. I even took over the doorman duties for awhile!

Look what Ducky did to me

and to Shar.

Lunch was horrible so I was thankful when Kel, Shar, Amy and I together with a few I/Cs had the chance to eat something nicer thanks to Ducky, in the staff canteen, because somehow our dinner disappeared. The hotel manager brought us into a secret door which is the entrance to the hotel's laundry room, staff canteen etc, everything was connected via a long corridor. It was quite an experience because I have never seen the inside of a hotel and (don't laugh) I've never knew such place exists.

After dinner, the 4 of us decided to return to our positions but alas, we lost our way because every door looks the same. It didn't help that weird noises were heard from the laundry room.

Finally found our way out. This is the third level's lounge.

The Regent's lift lobby. If you realised, I am fascinated by chandeliers.

Going down the bubblelift. I felt like my heart was gonna drop, it was like riding on SpaceShot, but I wanted to take it again.

The end of this event marks a new addition to my event shirt collection. ;P

2009-10-30T22:35:00.004+08:00

Finally found the time to update.

27 october 2009 Gelare with the girls...

Omona! My cui face..only posting it up because Ducky looks cute here.

Love my new group of friends. :)

28 october 2009

I almost died from sucking 5387235 amount of pearls due to my greediness.
"Auntie, double pearls pls. *biggrin*"
I lost my front tooth... :(

Elbow five

buzz buzz

2009-10-28T22:48:00.008+08:00

I've been busy. Did my team's business plan on monday, had Gelare with the girls on tues, attended a marketing talk today plus farewell dinner with Joel. Promise a proper update after the Run for Hope briefing tomorrow.

I'm so tired...i could fall asleep in front of my laptop now. Goodnight!

2009-10-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

I am not feeling guilty for not updating. HAHAHA. Have a good weekend!

Faith + Hope + Love

2009-10-18T17:05:00.007+08:00

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learnt the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learnt anything."

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people in the whole world. I mean everybody. Found out shocking and ugly truths...and it really hit me hard. Perhaps it is because I am naive, see the best in people and never expect such things to happen. They didn't want to disappoint me so they kept it a secret... I was clueless the entire time! I still love..i just don't agree with what they did/do.

I guess I'm just different. "You have to stand for what you believe in. And sometimes you have to stand alone." I truly believe God has a purpose for all of these shit happening including putting me in their lives. I have no idea what He wants me to do to help right now but believes that one day He will make everything and everyone beautiful again. Waiting for that awesome day to come...

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls for he has no one to help him up. Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

x

And then there were 4...

2009-10-17T23:29:00.006+08:00

Our cui faces

Whatever you guys said tonight (not the shocking secrets) really touched my heart. Just know that no matter what I still love you, G K C :* I'm off to bed now. My head is spinning i'm so louzy!, first time I'm feeling this way and only they know why :p

2009-10-15T22:12:00.001+08:00

All around me are familiar faces, worn out places, worn out faces. Bright and early for the daily races, going nowhere. Going nowhere.

Saeng il chuka hamnida!

2009-10-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

Five years ago during sec 1 orientation...

Amanda: *turns to girl beside me* Hi, what's your name?
Girl: Angie *smiles*
*few minutes later*
Amanda: Hi, what's your name?
Girl: Angie.

And that's how it all began.

*

I'm glad that we never had any huge fights..we only get upset with each other for awhile. I think it was all possible because you are always giving in to me. Thank you thank you! :p And when we get upset, we'll voice out and cry(yes..) and then make up again.

I love how I can be so silly & free around you. We can play dead, sing out of tune, head bang, burp and eat non-stop, laugh till we roll on the floor, mock fight, eat chickenfeet ..... among many other things.

I believe God has a purpose for putting you in my life. You're so special... :')
May God's blessing abound to you in every little way. May you taste and see His goodness each and every day. May your day be brightened more and sense that He's with you and loves you very much. Yeo ja chingu, sarang haeyo! <3

Birthday Song in Korean

2009-10-13T22:18:00.005+08:00

Thought I should share because I can't seem to find any website that teaches you how to sing the birthday song in korean correctly.
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Saeng il(birthday) chuka hamnida(congratulations)
Saeng il chuka hamnida
Sarang ha neum(lovely) Amanda(or any other names)
Saeng il chuka hamnida!

It's that easy! I mastered it after singing twice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CORN! ;)

School is making me feel...

2009-10-12T21:58:00.007+08:00

I shall sing Corn, G and Shar a birthday song in korean soon. ;)
Saeng il chukha hamnida!

2009-10-09T22:01:00.004+08:00

Today is one of the days when I'm feeling horrible about myself..and I don't exactly know why. Then I chanced upon this:

" You are so precious to Me, why can't you rest in this truth? You keep searching for Me through people. When are you going to realize I Am the one to feed you, not man.

It is good to have fellowship, but not if you are living off what they give you. I want you to be well fed by Me so that you might share your feast with others.

Wait for Me to move and watch for My leading. Don't settle for second best, allow Me to give you My best. Sometimes that comes from waiting and letting great opportunities pass you by.

Learn to listen and trust My voice. Be willing to do nothing if that is what I want you to do.

I love you & I have missed you.... "

& couldn't stop crying. But it's good because i'm feeling so much better now. Should always rest in the truth that I'm fearfully and wonderfully made :')

2009-10-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

"One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes."
Rev 21:3-4

What a wonderful wonderful promise.

Someone to watch over me

2009-10-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

There's a saying old says that love is blind
Still we're often told, "Seek and ye shall find"
So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind
Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet

He's the big affair I cannot forget
Only man I ever think of with regret
I'd like to add his initial to my monogram
Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There's a somebody I'm longing to see
I hope that he turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me
I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I know I could always be good
Someone who'll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some
girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key
Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

What do ya think?

2009-10-04T20:23:00.003+08:00

Is it better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

Time is priceless, but it’s Free. You can’t own it, you can use it. You can spend it. But you can’t keep it. Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back.
— Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler's Wife)

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Back to school tomarrow. I'm so excited that I forgot to pee! =x Ducky & YH are gonna be in the same class as me, with Shar just next door and Sugie & Thomas just around the corner. Yay, SOH unite!

Family Outing

2009-10-03T19:43:00.008+08:00

Ducky introduced me to Family Outing and it's so funny!

Hyun Joong oppa is always so adorable.

LOL @ Dae Sung's frightened expression

Too funny. I laughed so hard till my sides hurt.

I'm starting to really like Lee Hyo Ri.

Si Yeon: I'm so tired..why did I bother trying...

x

2009-10-02T22:24:00.004+08:00

MESSY HAIR ALERT!

Mr Lion, would you fancy a nice long ponytail...

or a cute little bun?

Tadah! Now you're looking great. *laugh*

OK let me update abit before you start to wonder if I have a life. I caught Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs and The Ugly Truth today. Both are very entertaining with a few big laughs.

When I was fatter, my dad told me to lose weight and now that I've lost some he thinks I have a boyfriend. *laugh* Nam ja chin gu eop sseo yo! Still can't figure out how to type in korean..i tried but somehow can't seem to insert the last consonant. Anyone?

Like the rest of the female population, I should start watching what I eat because gaining weight is too easy. Well, for me at least.

A: Chicken wings are my favourite!
G: But you just said ice cream is your favourite a while ago?
A: Really??? HAHAHA.

Ice-cream & Dessert Buffet

2009-09-29T22:37:00.010+08:00

Swensen's ice cream & dessert buffet @ ION because there was a 1-for-1 promotion(ends on 30 Sep)

Look , there's white chocolate fondue!

Round 1- Milo, Kiwi Raspberry, Yummy Raisin & Mango with peach cubes, malt balls and marshmallow sauce.

Round 2- Butterscotch, Mint Choco, Peachy Mango, Lychee Sherbet with chocolate stick and fan wafer.

Psst..love my eyelashes in this photo. Au naturel :p

I wanted to try all 50 flavours but it didn't happened because 1) I gave up after 8 scoops. 2) I don't think there's 50 flavours and most of them are not to my liking. Cookies & Cream was missing. BAH! If you ask me, I;'d say it's not worth it. 50 flavours, 40 toppings? Nah, it was much lesser.

We later bumped into Shan, JJ & YJ at Uniqlo and had a mini NCHS reunion. ^^

Am I the only one who feels disappointed with The Time Traveller's Wife weak script? The movie moves fast and there was an absence of logic. I didn't even shed a tear! I went in thinking that I will cry buckets..cheap my feelings!

Pointing at an Ansar-lookalike in my camera

LOL! Maybe Ansar lost weight..

Much love.

2009-09-27T18:51:00.003+08:00

"Cross your heart." :')

2009-09-26T22:07:00.003+08:00

There are moments when I wish I could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away, but I have the feeling that if I did, the joy would be gone as well.

- Landon Carter in A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks

Let's Frolick!

2009-09-25T21:45:00.001+08:00

2009-09-24T16:55:00.006+08:00

Consulted Dr Chng at KKH yesterday. I'm hoping braces would suffice because I seriously do not want to go for the surgery.

Famous duck & goose rice at Tekka Market for lunch.

Taiyaki at ION's Food Hall which suck. Don't be fooled!

Then to Merlion Park for my F1 promo duty.

Esplanade doesn't look real in this picture. It looks like I photoshopped it in.

One can melt under the sweltering heat!

Useless real fact. Seriously.

Walked a long distance, waited for an hour or so under the heat and then told I'm supposed to be at City Hall. The booth at City Hall had only 2 ambassadors and a guy offered to go in my place but DJ was adamant in having me back. Carrey Hill is really disorganised..can't they confirm my exact location for once? But I have to admit I was happy because being back at City Hall means no dirty toilets, no perspiring, proper F&B outlets, more human traffic and I don't have to walk a long distance just to get to the train station.

My one and only female partner for the day.

I feel accomplished after helping a handful of people yesterday- including returning to Macs after my duty to hand the guy his much coveted flag. You should have seen his whole face lit up! Many came up to ask if we're giving away F1 caps but sorry to disappoint, it's part of the uniform and I get to keep it. Muahahaha. I met Thomas, who was with a gang of guys in black so I jokingly asked if they were part of his gang & Sharlene specially came down to visit. <3>

2009-09-21T14:50:00.009+08:00

안녕!

What I've been up to:
- Working..i'm so glad that tomorrow will be my last day of work. It's easy but very boring(i'm the only temp) and tiring because it just keeps piling. I hope Jonathan won't get a rude shock when he returns.

- Learning a new language

for real from a 선생님.

- Helping out as an F1 Race Ambassador

I had so much fun working with these lovely girls- 3 from NUS, 1 from TP & RP. Boring? Not the least bit. We had fun talking, giving out freebies and laughing at how silly the 3 cute guys looked while they carried a huge advertisement board for a fashion show on their shoulders and walked around Raffles City Shopping Centre.

We helped filled up a lucky draw form for the Guinness guys. The prizes are...a trip to space, a ride in a submarine and a day with the Black Eyed Peas. Hope I win a ride in a submarine *grin*

I met...
1) Weird people
A guy went 'vroom vroom' as he walked past me. Weird people who asked how much we get paid, where to sign up to get this job & others who walked up and down just to get more freebies. One person asked for a stack. What can I say? Just give lor..
2) Annoying people
They don't reject, they just ignore you. They don't acknowledge your existence and don't have the decent courtesy to say no.
3) Nice people
Someone flashed me a thumbs up sign and winked. Most smiled& said thank you. The more polite ones are those who asked for more stuff.
4) Ducky's friend and BinBin who were all surprised to see me.

I'll be on duty again this wed at Cityhall 5-9pm so drop by if you're around that area for Singapore Grand Prix postcards, posters or flags!

Origami rose from Sammy:) HAVE A GREAT WEEK.

Team Taylor!

2009-09-14T20:45:00.014+08:00

I don't particularly fancy Beyonce but I think she's such a sweetheart. MTV VMAs remix. This time Kanye West interrupts Obama's speech. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL too funny!

2009-09-13T17:44:00.009+08:00

What I learnt from today's service:
- There's a difference between knowing God and knowing about God.
- What one generation neglects, the next generation rejects.
- We need to know God personally and not just go to church to 'collect information' on Him.

Then the incredible happened. Gold dust appeared on some people's palms because we were praying for God to come. MEGA COOL!!! Feeling so blessed because I just got a camera from Comex 2009 at such a great deal and the best thing is I didn't have to pay a single cent. My dad very kindly sponsored me. *big grin*

Hope all of you had a great weekend!

2009-09-10T22:04:00.009+08:00

She's so cute and omgosh...her voice!!!

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see em bloom for me and for you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

HATE YOU NASTY BEE!!!

2009-09-08T11:21:00.008+08:00

Praying and hoping that the swelling, pain(stings&burns at the same time) and itch goes away soon. It's coming to a week....darn! But God is faithful and He comforts me during this tough period.

F1 training was rather meh. Made 4 new friends from NP who were nice to help me and give suggestions during the role-play. I AM STILL WAITING TO BE DEPLOYED!!!
First day of work ytd and I already had so much to do because Jonathan didn't come in on fri :( so I had to do abit of thurs', whole of fri's, alil of the weekends and ytd's. Teared, scanned and calculated the media value of 45 articles which resulted in very black fingers from print ink then I had to constantly remind myself to not touch my face if not i'd turn into a panda fo real.

It's only my first day but work has been on my mind. The last thing I thought about before I fell asleep was work...and how i forgot to send out the traffic report. *face palm*
Today I will work with photoshop. Today I hope I won't have so much work. Today my swelling and pain from the bee sting will go away. Today I will be a blessing. Today will be a good day. :)

Filled with wonder...awestruck wonder.

2009-09-03T15:51:00.009+08:00

YES YES YES! My prayer for a longer job has been answered! My 4 day stint turned into 3 weeks. Rather excited to be working in a PR firm, though it's small but I am sure I'll learn a lot. Besides, the pay is good. I'm not at liberty to say more but you can always ask me in person if you're interested to know.. :p

Happy elephant does a backflip

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So faithful, so constant and so true
So powerful in all You do
You fill me, You see
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You

So patient, so gracious, so merciful and so true
So wonderful in all You do
I know that You are for me

2009-09-01T20:04:00.007+08:00

Virgin visit to ION today and it was boring except for UNIQLO and Rubi shoes which I think is part of Cotton On. We ate wanton mee because we couldn't find the handmade mee hoon kueh stall at FEP then we walked aimlessly around town. There's nothing to do except to shop or watch movies. Geez, there's gotta be more to life!

On a side note, the weather's perfect to chill in bed with a book. Talking about books...I borrowed 2 novels, The Song Reader and The Importance of Being Married. Not gonna read The Time Traveler's Wife because it looks confusing..besides, I'm gonna watch the movie first before it spoils any impressions I have of it.

Meeting the boss tmr at Anson Road then taking pictures with G on thursday and finally... attend a 8-hour long F1 Race Ambassador training by TMIS on friday.

Have a good week!

2009-08-28T20:51:00.009+08:00

Went to Dr Vincent Yeow for consultation today. Ok, so he said besides putting on braces, I will have to undergo a surgery. *wide eyed* I won't say what surgery because..people are bound to put fear in me when I'm already so terrified!!! The nurses were all asking me to relax while they took my x-ray. I seriously hope I won't be conscious during the whole op :( Imagine cutting up your ___ and feeling/hearing it fall back into place AHHHHHHHHHHhhh

"The surgery usually requires hospitalisation and a period of recuperation, ranging from two weeks to six weeks." :O GOD BLESS ME.

We left to the airport to say goodbye to korkor Clarence who's flying back to Brisbane. Took the chance to ask mom if I could travel overseas with friends end of the year and surprisingly, she agreed! Some retail therapy after, to calm my nerves from the impending surgery.

I don't usually wear sandals and if you know me well enough you'll know how choosy I am with shoes- no open toes, no pointy fronts, no slingbacks. But this rose coloured sandals is too sweet to pass. Faith Hope Love notebook in hot pink(favourite buy for today)! Let's ignore fact that I have 9 half-used notebooks sitting on my shelf.

Some Mango lovin' + cool Smints packed specially for Mango.

Fancy some pancakes for dinner? Please do not laugh at my failed attempt at making an elephant. I know it looks more like a hippopotamus or a giant tortoise but hey at least I tried. Ha ha.

Goodbye makes the next hello closer

2009-08-26T22:16:00.009+08:00

A chapter of my life, Year 1 Sem 1, has come to an end. It was undeniably wonderful to work with you guys, save for some.

W45G

The 3 of them, who made my first semester full of fun and nonsense! I will remember Sharlene's boisterous personality and laughter, XingXiu's sense of humour and Suganya's jokes and the way she speaks! Amazing how we became close in just a span of 3 months.

The nerd and her grandma :p

Goodbyes are inevitable in life, but the best part of saying goodbye is the excitement and thrill that comes with facing the unknown. Much love to all and I hope your life will always be filled with love, joy, peace and laughter. :)

Another journey in life awaits...till then be blessed!

The Proposal

2009-08-21T22:13:00.009+08:00

Andrew Paxton: Don't take this the wrong way.
Margaret Tate: OK.
Andrew Paxton: You are a very, *very* beautiful woman.

It was a lot better than I thought it would be – even laugh out loud funny at times. However, I thought the movie's soundtrack was rather depressing. The only song I like is the opening song, Find My Way by The Gabe Dixon Band. 3.5/5 stars because I thought it was a bit unrealistic for them to fall in love(and want to get married) within a few days!

Ryan Reynolds is cute has a supaaa hot bod and I heart Sandra Bullock's hair!!!

I can't wait for this!!

2009-08-19T22:11:00.011+08:00

I want to get the novel so badly..but at the same time I'm afraid the movie will suck because most of the movies(PS I Love You and Twilight) made from best selling novels are below my expectations. Maybe books are more detailed and you get to use your imagination & sometimes the movie producers leave certain stuff out in the movie. Aye...anyway, Rachel McAdams is really pretty and I love Broken by Lifehouse, which is one of the soundtracks for the movie.

Sept17!

Kim Hyun Joong for MVIO.

2009-08-17T21:57:00.007+08:00

Credits: OMONATD@LJCOMM & EIFFELINSEOUL@BS

The air smells really fresh after the rain.

2009-08-15T16:40:00.011+08:00

IU acoustic covers. I love her voice! Can you believe she's only 16?

UT3 is nearing! Gotta depend on You now.. i don't want to repeat any module :(

2009-08-14T14:51:00.013+08:00

2 amazing things happened in a night

Still feel like i'm torn between though i already know what's my final decision. Ahh hate that feeling.11:27 PM Aug 12th from TweetSG

Was talking to God a few mins ago asking Him to help me make a decision. Later wondered how He's going to answer..11:54 PM Aug 12th from TweetSG

My mom just came into my room and gave me the answer on His behalf. This is so amazing..really.11:54 PM Aug 12th from TweetSG

& the second.. God mended it.

I was surprised when I rcved that text because I said nothing. Really...
:')

YESTERDAY

Puppy
Pampers. I love her because she looks so much like Joy.
They all wanted a piece of me. Heh, guess i'm too hard to resist :p

Found an empty Tiger biscuit wrapper on the sofa and I thought Corn have and ate his own. Me to Kel: Wah..sarkly that is mine.

It was. -_-

Guess who's the culprit?

She jumped onto the sofa to get it out of my bag and ripped open the wrapper with her baby teeth. !
Pampers didn't dare to look at me while I scolded her. This is one guilty dog.

2009-08-12T22:40:00.005+08:00

Today something hurtful happened and it made me stop to think if some people are going to be there till the end fo' real. Actually, what makes a good friend? I know for sure that it is definitely not one who constantly pokes fun at you in front of everyone and makes you feel bad about yourself.

"There's a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. It's realising that you don't need certain people and their crap."

2009-08-12T22:21:00.003+08:00

I had my last Communications class today. I really must admit that I have learnt a lot of interesting useful stuff like identifying non-verbal communications to (today's topic on) being media smart. We had to watch advertisements and decipher some of the hidden messages, the different persuasive appeals advertisers use like pathos logos ethos and many others which I hope I won't forget..

My first semester is about to end. Look how time flies!

2009-08-10T22:34:00.004+08:00

There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiousity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care.