I read my older posts and realised I was much happier(and skinnier hehe), because I was much closer to God, in 2007. There's no point looking back...December is already here. Before we know it, it will be the start of a new year. Don't wanna lose myself again.

모르겠습니다 무슨일이에요. *frowns* 이제는 다시시작해?

My heart feels heavy... I wish I could talk to someone about it but I can't. Was it a mistake when our paths crossed? Would I rather not know about it? Is it wrong to keep it all inside?

Faith Hope Love? Maybe.


Hello my friend. I remember when you were so alive with your wide eyes. Then the light in your heart was stolen. Now you say that it ain't worth staying, you wanna run but you're hesitating. I'm talking to me. Don't let your lights go down, don't let your fire burn out. Somewhere somebody needs a reason to believe. So when you get the chance, are you gonna take it? There's a really big world at your fingertips and you know you have the chance to change it.

Never stop believing...

“ You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. ”

— Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy

Have you ever read a love story with the sweetest ending or watched the most romantic movie which portrayed the perfect kind of guy/girl you'd want to fall in love with, who'd always love you back just as much? Have you ever imagined yourself in such a beautiful fantasy, secretly wishing that someday it might happen to you.. Secretly hoping that one day you'll meet that special someone you will (and not just "want to") spend the rest of your life with? I have and still do. Do you?

Faith + Hope + Love

"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learnt the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learnt anything."



Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people in the whole world. I mean everybody. Found out shocking and ugly truths...and it really hit me hard. Perhaps it is because I am naive, see the best in people and never expect such things to happen. They didn't want to disappoint me so they kept it a secret... I was clueless the entire time! I still love..i just don't agree with what they did/do.

I guess I'm just different. "You have to stand for what you believe in. And sometimes you have to stand alone." I truly believe God has a purpose for all of these shit happening including putting me in their lives. I have no idea what He wants me to do to help right now but believes that one day He will make everything and everyone beautiful again. Waiting for that awesome day to come...


Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls for he has no one to help him up. Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

x

Saeng il chuka hamnida!

Five years ago during sec 1 orientation...

Amanda: *turns to girl beside me* Hi, what's your name?
Girl: Angie *smiles*
*few minutes later*
Amanda: Hi, what's your name?
Girl: Angie.

And that's how it all began.

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I'm glad that we never had any huge fights..we only get upset with each other for awhile. I think it was all possible because you are always giving in to me. Thank you thank you! :p And when we get upset, we'll voice out and cry(yes..) and then make up again.

I love how I can be so silly & free around you. We can play dead, sing out of tune, head bang, burp and eat non-stop, laugh till we roll on the floor, mock fight, eat chickenfeet ..... among many other things.

I believe God has a purpose for putting you in my life. You're so special... :')
May God's blessing abound to you in every little way. May you taste and see His goodness each and every day. May your day be brightened more and sense that He's with you and loves you very much. Yeo ja chingu, sarang haeyo! <3

Today is one of the days when I'm feeling horrible about myself..and I don't exactly know why. Then I chanced upon this:

" You are so precious to Me, why can't you rest in this truth? You keep searching for Me through people. When are you going to realize I Am the one to feed you, not man.

It is good to have fellowship, but not if you are living off what they give you. I want you to be well fed by Me so that you might share your feast with others.

Wait for Me to move and watch for My leading. Don't settle for second best, allow Me to give you My best. Sometimes that comes from waiting and letting great opportunities pass you by.

Learn to listen and trust My voice. Be willing to do nothing if that is what I want you to do.

I love you & I have missed you.... "


& couldn't stop crying. But it's good because i'm feeling so much better now. Should always rest in the truth that I'm fearfully and wonderfully made :')

What do ya think?

Is it better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?

Time is priceless, but it’s Free. You can’t own it, you can use it. You can spend it. But you can’t keep it. Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back.
— Audrey Niffenegger (The Time Traveler's Wife)

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Back to school tomarrow. I'm so excited that I forgot to pee! =x Ducky & YH are gonna be in the same class as me, with Shar just next door and Sugie & Thomas just around the corner. Yay, SOH unite!

Today something hurtful happened and it made me stop to think if some people are going to be there till the end fo' real. Actually, what makes a good friend? I know for sure that it is definitely not one who constantly pokes fun at you in front of everyone and makes you feel bad about yourself.

"There's a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. It's realising that you don't need certain people and their crap."

There's a little truth behind every just kidding, a little curiousity behind every just wondering, a little knowledge behind every I don't know, and a little emotion behind every I don't care.